Day 17 🌞
Yesterday, after 15 days at home, with ups and downs, that followed months of a gap year with ups and downs, I went outside. Not to be dramatic, but being my dramatic self, I wanted to cry once I was outside, the sun on my skin, the wind on my body, my playlist with the usual songs I used to listen to when I was making that same path, to catch the bus to uni or the internship.
Outside I had a glimpse of my old life, of life before all the coronavirus craziness, but also about my student life ...
What matters is that in that half an hour I found the strength I thought I wouldn't get again.
One night I left the table at dinner because I couldn't stand one more piece of news on the current situation, I seat in front of the piano and decided to try something, the Skye boat song, a popular Scottish song that is also the intro to outlander. After that night it became my ritual to after-dinner, play the piano and find peace while my father watches the news.
Yesterday I decided to start exercising again, that was something I wanted to do when the quarantine started but on day 2 I caught a cold and had to stop for a whole week.
I didn't put the pressure I tried to put at first, this time. No unbreakable schedules, just things I want or have to do and trying in peace to find the time to do it.
The other day I was so lost, I couldn't focus on my german class (I hate online classes, sorry not sorry) but a good friend was there to pick up the pieces of my broken soul.💛
Today I woke up, I did my gratitude list (as I've been trying to do every day), I drank my coffee, I listened to some music while exercising and then showering, I had lunch, I went to my room and kept listening to some music while drawing, I am drawing again, something I used to love so much and haven't done for such a long time, I tried to learn how to play the guitar (I am a disaster, but a happy disaster), I vacuum cleaned the living room, my room and the bathroom (mom, yes I am working too), I got some cookies and juice, and took a nap (I had a very productive day my friends), I put the table and had a good dinner, accompanied by my everything, my parents (I love you even when I just want to yell with you), I had a beer to help too, I went to the piano and played and sang with my mom and we laughed and then I watched some tv and now I am in bed, this day was amazing, filled with simple yet wonderful things.
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| My drawing of the singer Aitana |
I know every day won't be like this one, I know I have works to do, a room to clean, and probably still weeks of lockdown. But this week I stay with beautiful moments.
Don't be hard on yourself, be happy for every little thing you achieve, be proud of your accomplishments, no matter how small they seem, they never are 💛
Stay safe,
Joana
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