Day 31 🌊
Where to start with this week??? I guess we should go by parts.
1- Compilation of week 4 of quarantine:
We got to the Easter holidays so I had no german classes, and had that holiday feeling. I started the week rewatching the last episodes of A Regra do Jogo, the amount of emotions!!!
On Saturday my dad and I went to my mom's atelier to water her plants and check the mail. My mom's workplace is quite near the beach so when we were getting there I was able to see the ocean, I am not lying when I say I cried. At that moment I was so so happy. I also dressed outside clothes to go there and was so good to feel like a normal human being again.
I read two books (I am reading quite a lot, yay!). I took some nice photos for my Instagram and did my theater homework.
I also cleaned my room a little bit. It was another unproductive week but is "spring break" so I will give myself a discount.
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| using red lipstick after a long time |
2- Easter on quarantine:
So far I can only say that the idea of for the first time in 22 years not spending the easter with my mom's family at her hometown has been saddening me for a while. There are all these traditions that I won't be able to do this year and that was something that bothered me since the beginning of the quarantine. I guess is because I been thinking about this for a while that now that my parents are sad I kinda feel nothing, it is like I already suffered the weeks before. Am I sad? Yap, but not feeling like crying but I guess we really have to wait for Sunday to know.
3- What has been on my mind this week:
Manly at the beginning of the week there was this thought that started tormenting me "what will be of me when the quarantine is over?". I started thinking on how pretty much everyone will be happily getting back to there lives and I came to the realization that my life was already quite a quarantine, (a mental one) of course I had weekends next to the beach lunching with my parents and meetings with my friends but I wasn't really living. Like I said before, I was getting back to that dark place I already know. My mental health isn't living its best moments and I really don't know how I will deal with life after all this mess ends ... I guess I ended feeling like this quarantine gave me a reason to be the way I was for the last months and I can't really visualize what to do next.
4- About today in particular:
It is 04:44am and I am really happy writing on my blog. I had a good day, I slept well, I had a nice lunch, my dad and I finally finished watching La Casa De Papel, I talked a looooooooot with my mom, about everything, I went outside to drop the trash and walk a little bit, I went throw old photo albums with my mom and remembered moments and people that had and have a strong impact on my life despite not being here anymore. We fell on the Tik Tok rabbit hole and laughed a lot. It was a good day! 😊
5- What I would like to do next week:
First of all, enjoy Easter despite the circunstances. Then I would like to find the motivation to study german and attend my online classes and do this week's theater exercise.
I would like to keep reading and watching series that make me happy (I am so happy rewatching Merlí). I would love to draw something, practice the piano and maybe try to learn something on the guitar (it isn't a crime to dream). More realistically I would like to spend a while journaling and maybe writing. But the main goal has to always be: survive the week with the maximum of happiness and tranquility as possible.
Love from a sleepy but happy me 😗💤
PS: Put your playlist on and dance 💓
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