Day 57 🍺
Am I gonna still doing the 'Chronicles of a quarantine'?
This used to be a Friday night kind of thing. A coping mechanism during the quarantine. Right now I feel that these posts are getting too repetitive and sometimes I really don't know if there's anything interesting to say ... Also, technically quarantine is over. We are supposed to stay at home if we can and both my theatre and german classes are online so I am still on quarantine mood but is not an obligation anymore (?)
Since the last chronicle of a quarantine...
I have been attending my online classes and reading quite a lot. I think that's the extent of my productivity. I had some great time reading, playing trivial with my family, video chatting with my best friend and the other day when I went for a walk. I've been journaling a lot too, which is really fun and relaxing.
However, I spent my days pretty much on my bed and I haven't played the piano or drawing in weeks...
Feelings ...
I miss my friends a lot, I miss just hugging them, laughing about everything and anything, grab a drink on Starbucks or Costa, dance all night long, all those stuff, but I know already from the experience of all of us living far from each other that no matter the distance we are always together.
I miss the ocean as fuck, that's my happy place but I try not to think much about it, to say the truth not thinking has been the strategy.
I keep my mind occupied with books, series, films, music, youtube ... as much as possible.
Today I had this conversation with my dad about my goals for the future and his lack of faith in my dreams didn't cause that much of an impact as I thought, maybe in a few days I will be crying over it and my own insecurities. For now, I got a beer and just contemplated other things ...
I am not okay in terms of my mental health, that is a fact, but I guess I won´t be back to the psychiatrist soon, so I just breathe in, breathe out and try to live the moment.
I was thinking about how I am okay at lots of things but not really great at any, I always thought that but today it just hit me again, but this time it didn't hurt that much. I guess today I am not in the mood to hate myself, thanks!
Stuff I want to do...
As always my goals are to be more productive, but well this time I will not leave my to-do list here.
Stuff I want to do here!
I would like to make a post about my experience with anxiety and panic attacks since May is mental health awareness month, and I've been wanting to do that post since the beginning of this blog. I also will probably do a post about the spring bingo I am participating in, hosted by readinswiizard on Instagram.
I guess that's it for now ... If you actually read this, well congrats and thank you ahah
Btw go check this playlist my best friend made that was the soundtrack of this post 🧡
Love, Joana
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